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2007/08/15
Modded Pacifiers
Hi folks, if anybody's watching -- PacifiersRUs is a site I found today. They buy Nuk 5 pacifiers from MAPA in Germany (you won't find the Medic Pro Saugtrainer on this page; it only has their products for babies), dismantle them, and combine them with pacifiers made for actual babies using a process they call MonSep12©. What they end up with (and sell to you) is a pacifier with an adult-size nipple but with the plastic ring and shield of a baby pacifier, complete with babyish designs -- Disney, Looney Tunes, Peanuts, etc. Since the adult-size NUK pacifiers, although very well made, come in only one boring color (white), I find this interesting. They will even accept a baby-size pacifier you send them and modify it for you, for a fee that includes the price of the NUK pacifier they had to dismantle.
It's interesting that we are seeing more entrepreneurs who are selling products to adult babies, such as Bambino Diapers. I think I like this trend.
Hi folks, if anybody's watching -- PacifiersRUs is a site I found today. They buy Nuk 5 pacifiers from MAPA in Germany (you won't find the Medic Pro Saugtrainer on this page; it only has their products for babies), dismantle them, and combine them with pacifiers made for actual babies using a process they call MonSep12©. What they end up with (and sell to you) is a pacifier with an adult-size nipple but with the plastic ring and shield of a baby pacifier, complete with babyish designs -- Disney, Looney Tunes, Peanuts, etc. Since the adult-size NUK pacifiers, although very well made, come in only one boring color (white), I find this interesting. They will even accept a baby-size pacifier you send them and modify it for you, for a fee that includes the price of the NUK pacifier they had to dismantle.
It's interesting that we are seeing more entrepreneurs who are selling products to adult babies, such as Bambino Diapers. I think I like this trend.
2006/08/21
This shouldn't even be news
Apparently the latest suspect in the murder of JonBenet Ramsey was "shadowed by gender issues since his early years" and was visiting a Thai clinic that does cosmetic surgery as well as sexual-reassignment surgery, having some facial hair removed in preparation for a future sex-change operation.
Why am I remarking about this? Well, why is anybody? The second article I link above calls this development a "bombshell." Why is it any more important than it would be if, say, he'd had a mole removed? I think the real story here is about why this is in the news at all.
I submit that this story is in the news because American society still sees the line between "different" and "criminal" as a very thin one, if indeed it sees a line there at all. I can understand that whenever somebody does something monstrous, like killing a child, everybody else wants to distance themselves, to find ways in which they're not like the guy who did this, and one way to do that is to find ways in which the perpetrator deviates from the norm. It makes us all feel better about ourselves to know that there's normal, and then there's this guy, and we're all comfortably on the side of normal.
But doesn't it seem like the "norm" he deviates from gets redefined every time some "deviant," real or imagined, makes headlines? It's fairly clear that the "norm" is whatever is unlike somebody that the media is telling us we don't want to be like right now.
Anyway, this guy says that little girls are something like a peer group to him and that he's had gender issues since childhood. In case this sounds like somebody with gender or age dysphoria, guess what -- yes, it does! I'm not going to do what everybody else seems to do and try to pretend to be as unlike the suspect as possible. Because only an idiot (by which I mean the target audience of most of the media, unfortunately) would assume that this means that gender/age dysphoria = psychotic. If he'd said that he'd enjoyed collecting postage stamps since childhood, I doubt there'd be any such connection in anybody's mind, and I doubt it would even have made the news. Still, I'm pretty sure that a nonzero percentage of serial killers have been stamp collectors. Does that mean there's a connection between philately and pedophilia? Only an idiot would think so.
To summarize: For one thing, most people with gender and/or age dysphoria aren't murderers and aren't mentally ill. For another thing, there are lots of other irrelevant "connections" that could be made and aren't being made, because they're irrelevant; the media just likes to dwell on "colorful" subjects like transsexuality. And finally, this guy is still a suspect! There isn't any evidence that this guy did anything to poor JonBenet, other than the fact that he lived in the area at the time and says he was present when she died (he doesn't even admit killing her, or at least he hasn't as of the time I'm writing this). Wouldn't it be ironic if they had to let him go because of lack of evidence, meaning that the real killer is still at large? (I doubt transsexuals would be seeing any apologies from the media if this happened, though.)
Then there's the question of whether he really is transsexual. Is there any real evidence that he is, or is he actually mentally ill and was he seeking surgery as a result of that illness? Or if he is a killer, perhaps all the talk about having gender issues is a lie, and he was seeking surgery as a way to change his identity and hide from justice?
Anyway, I refuse to let society make me distance myself from this Karr guy, even if he really is a transsexual, and even if he really did kill JonBenet Ramsey. Sure, maybe I also have what you might call gender and age dysphoria issues. So what? I also have two arms and two legs, just like Karr. What's the difference between me and him? The fact that I don't rape or kill kids. End of story.
Apparently the latest suspect in the murder of JonBenet Ramsey was "shadowed by gender issues since his early years" and was visiting a Thai clinic that does cosmetic surgery as well as sexual-reassignment surgery, having some facial hair removed in preparation for a future sex-change operation.
Why am I remarking about this? Well, why is anybody? The second article I link above calls this development a "bombshell." Why is it any more important than it would be if, say, he'd had a mole removed? I think the real story here is about why this is in the news at all.
I submit that this story is in the news because American society still sees the line between "different" and "criminal" as a very thin one, if indeed it sees a line there at all. I can understand that whenever somebody does something monstrous, like killing a child, everybody else wants to distance themselves, to find ways in which they're not like the guy who did this, and one way to do that is to find ways in which the perpetrator deviates from the norm. It makes us all feel better about ourselves to know that there's normal, and then there's this guy, and we're all comfortably on the side of normal.
But doesn't it seem like the "norm" he deviates from gets redefined every time some "deviant," real or imagined, makes headlines? It's fairly clear that the "norm" is whatever is unlike somebody that the media is telling us we don't want to be like right now.
Anyway, this guy says that little girls are something like a peer group to him and that he's had gender issues since childhood. In case this sounds like somebody with gender or age dysphoria, guess what -- yes, it does! I'm not going to do what everybody else seems to do and try to pretend to be as unlike the suspect as possible. Because only an idiot (by which I mean the target audience of most of the media, unfortunately) would assume that this means that gender/age dysphoria = psychotic. If he'd said that he'd enjoyed collecting postage stamps since childhood, I doubt there'd be any such connection in anybody's mind, and I doubt it would even have made the news. Still, I'm pretty sure that a nonzero percentage of serial killers have been stamp collectors. Does that mean there's a connection between philately and pedophilia? Only an idiot would think so.
To summarize: For one thing, most people with gender and/or age dysphoria aren't murderers and aren't mentally ill. For another thing, there are lots of other irrelevant "connections" that could be made and aren't being made, because they're irrelevant; the media just likes to dwell on "colorful" subjects like transsexuality. And finally, this guy is still a suspect! There isn't any evidence that this guy did anything to poor JonBenet, other than the fact that he lived in the area at the time and says he was present when she died (he doesn't even admit killing her, or at least he hasn't as of the time I'm writing this). Wouldn't it be ironic if they had to let him go because of lack of evidence, meaning that the real killer is still at large? (I doubt transsexuals would be seeing any apologies from the media if this happened, though.)
Then there's the question of whether he really is transsexual. Is there any real evidence that he is, or is he actually mentally ill and was he seeking surgery as a result of that illness? Or if he is a killer, perhaps all the talk about having gender issues is a lie, and he was seeking surgery as a way to change his identity and hide from justice?
Anyway, I refuse to let society make me distance myself from this Karr guy, even if he really is a transsexual, and even if he really did kill JonBenet Ramsey. Sure, maybe I also have what you might call gender and age dysphoria issues. So what? I also have two arms and two legs, just like Karr. What's the difference between me and him? The fact that I don't rape or kill kids. End of story.
2006/07/06
Updated the Munch Page
Hi. What a boring update this is. But basically since the Munch has been held in Bloomington for the past several months due to not very many people coming who don't live in Bloomington, I'm just saying we'll go with Bloomington unless somebody would rather meet in Greenwood. Here's the new page (same address as the old page, but with new content):
Central Indiana AB/DL Munch
Hi. What a boring update this is. But basically since the Munch has been held in Bloomington for the past several months due to not very many people coming who don't live in Bloomington, I'm just saying we'll go with Bloomington unless somebody would rather meet in Greenwood. Here's the new page (same address as the old page, but with new content):
Central Indiana AB/DL Munch
2005/10/03
Queen's Square Bladder Stimulator
I had never heard of such devices being produced before today, but aparently the Queen's Square Bladder Stimulator is a vibrating device that, when held against the skin over the bladder, just above the pubic region and activated, assists the bladder in emptying. Usually this is for people with serious neurological conditions such as multiple sclerosis, to make sure the bladder empties fully, but ... hmm, I wonder how hard it would be to keep from "letting go" if somebody tried one of these things on you. Or if there were some way to fix one in place with a belt or something and activate it by remote control -- Mommy pushes the button and it's time for Baby to wet now!
I had never heard of such devices being produced before today, but aparently the Queen's Square Bladder Stimulator is a vibrating device that, when held against the skin over the bladder, just above the pubic region and activated, assists the bladder in emptying. Usually this is for people with serious neurological conditions such as multiple sclerosis, to make sure the bladder empties fully, but ... hmm, I wonder how hard it would be to keep from "letting go" if somebody tried one of these things on you. Or if there were some way to fix one in place with a belt or something and activate it by remote control -- Mommy pushes the button and it's time for Baby to wet now!
Wetting Alarms
Conversation continues on the munch Yahoo group about RSVPing for the monthly AB/DL munches, but the two people who have responded so far think it wouldn't be amiss at all for me to make sure someone's coming before heading to the munch myself.
Meanwhile, about diaper and wetting alarms. There were at one time musical diaper alarms available -- a little clip-on device would attach to the waistband of the plastic panties or anywhere on the clothing, a sensor connected with a wire went inside the diaper, and when the diaper got wet, the device would play a little tune, sounding like the tune played by musical greeting cards. This would work for both real babies and adult babies, of course. It detects moisture by measuring electrical resistance, but the mixture of moisture and electricity isn't dangerous, because the amount of current used is so small. I saw one in use at an AB party I went to in New York City. But I haven't been able to actually find such a thing for sale so I can have one of my own.
A famous African-American inventor named Lonnie Johnson, also known as the inventor of the Super Soaker water gun, also invented and patented a wet diaper detector, in 1980. I don't know whether the device he invented was incorporated into the musical diaper alarm that I saw, but I do keep running into this inventor when I search the Web.
Today I found an intriguing device: the Malem Bed-Side Bed Wetting Alarm. This very adaptible system actually has a short-range transmitter in its battery-operated detector, which sends a signal to the receiver box in another room. This receiver can be programmed to signal a caregiver in one of a number of ways: an alarm tone, a recorded message, or a musical alert. The transmitter doesn't make any noise, vibrate, or anything. They have three kinds of sensors: the kind that goes inside a diaper, the kind that clips to underwear, and the kind that you put under the bedsheet. Just imagine -- in another room, Mommy already knows you've wet your diaper, but you don't know that she knows! All this is very interesting, but the $170 price tag is rather scary. Maybe they'll become less expensive with time.
Conversation continues on the munch Yahoo group about RSVPing for the monthly AB/DL munches, but the two people who have responded so far think it wouldn't be amiss at all for me to make sure someone's coming before heading to the munch myself.
Meanwhile, about diaper and wetting alarms. There were at one time musical diaper alarms available -- a little clip-on device would attach to the waistband of the plastic panties or anywhere on the clothing, a sensor connected with a wire went inside the diaper, and when the diaper got wet, the device would play a little tune, sounding like the tune played by musical greeting cards. This would work for both real babies and adult babies, of course. It detects moisture by measuring electrical resistance, but the mixture of moisture and electricity isn't dangerous, because the amount of current used is so small. I saw one in use at an AB party I went to in New York City. But I haven't been able to actually find such a thing for sale so I can have one of my own.
A famous African-American inventor named Lonnie Johnson, also known as the inventor of the Super Soaker water gun, also invented and patented a wet diaper detector, in 1980. I don't know whether the device he invented was incorporated into the musical diaper alarm that I saw, but I do keep running into this inventor when I search the Web.
Today I found an intriguing device: the Malem Bed-Side Bed Wetting Alarm. This very adaptible system actually has a short-range transmitter in its battery-operated detector, which sends a signal to the receiver box in another room. This receiver can be programmed to signal a caregiver in one of a number of ways: an alarm tone, a recorded message, or a musical alert. The transmitter doesn't make any noise, vibrate, or anything. They have three kinds of sensors: the kind that goes inside a diaper, the kind that clips to underwear, and the kind that you put under the bedsheet. Just imagine -- in another room, Mommy already knows you've wet your diaper, but you don't know that she knows! All this is very interesting, but the $170 price tag is rather scary. Maybe they'll become less expensive with time.
2005/09/30
Gas prices and munches
It's probably time for me to come out and admit it: I was the only one present at the last two munches (August 20 and September 17, 2005). High gas prices probably have something to do with it; they were already on the rise because of increasing worldwide demand for crude oil, and then Hurricanes Katrina and Rita hit the Gulf of Mexico. Gas has been above $2.70/gallon for months and has exceeded $3 at times.
There's also the fact that my munches aren't any kind of flashy, attractive affair. I'm not trying to put on a party of some kind -- I don't have the resources necessary to hold an AB party. I've stated over and over that I'm only arranging these munches because I think we just need a place and time to meet. But sometimes I worry that there isn't much of a "we" anymore.
Well, I'm not going to quit. But I think I will ask people to tell me if they're coming -- if I don't get at least one RSVP, I'll stay home and save myself time and money. This may require me to put some kind of flag on my web page that states whether I've gotten such an RSVP or not for a given month. I'll have to think about that.
It's probably time for me to come out and admit it: I was the only one present at the last two munches (August 20 and September 17, 2005). High gas prices probably have something to do with it; they were already on the rise because of increasing worldwide demand for crude oil, and then Hurricanes Katrina and Rita hit the Gulf of Mexico. Gas has been above $2.70/gallon for months and has exceeded $3 at times.
There's also the fact that my munches aren't any kind of flashy, attractive affair. I'm not trying to put on a party of some kind -- I don't have the resources necessary to hold an AB party. I've stated over and over that I'm only arranging these munches because I think we just need a place and time to meet. But sometimes I worry that there isn't much of a "we" anymore.
Well, I'm not going to quit. But I think I will ask people to tell me if they're coming -- if I don't get at least one RSVP, I'll stay home and save myself time and money. This may require me to put some kind of flag on my web page that states whether I've gotten such an RSVP or not for a given month. I'll have to think about that.
2005/08/29
Gave a presentation
Although the AB side of my life has slowed down to a great extent lately, I did give a presentation on ageplay and adult baby play at the Great Lakes Leather Alliance convention this past weekend. It was on a Saturday morning, but there were 6 people there. One of them was also into adult baby play and was in her one-piece fuzzy jammies -- it turns out that she is also into puppy play; the next workshop was on puppy play, and she was leading it. She's very cool. And if anybody who came to the workshop is reading this, you're all very cool, and I thank you muchly for coming!
I just basically talked about things that I've done, or heard other people tell me that they've done, as well as applied the usual BDSM way of thinking (make sure it's consensual and try to minimize the physical and mental risks) to ageplay in general and adult baby play in specific. I also threw in some ideas I had about things it wouldn't be too farfetched to try. Basically I wanted to try to get people interested in adult baby play by throwing out a lot of possible things to try, and share some ideas with people who were already into it in case they hadn't heard them already.
Anyway, everybody who came to the presentation said that it was very good and they enjoyed it. I'm very happy about that. This might help me want to make AB stuff a bigger part of my life again.
Although the AB side of my life has slowed down to a great extent lately, I did give a presentation on ageplay and adult baby play at the Great Lakes Leather Alliance convention this past weekend. It was on a Saturday morning, but there were 6 people there. One of them was also into adult baby play and was in her one-piece fuzzy jammies -- it turns out that she is also into puppy play; the next workshop was on puppy play, and she was leading it. She's very cool. And if anybody who came to the workshop is reading this, you're all very cool, and I thank you muchly for coming!
I just basically talked about things that I've done, or heard other people tell me that they've done, as well as applied the usual BDSM way of thinking (make sure it's consensual and try to minimize the physical and mental risks) to ageplay in general and adult baby play in specific. I also threw in some ideas I had about things it wouldn't be too farfetched to try. Basically I wanted to try to get people interested in adult baby play by throwing out a lot of possible things to try, and share some ideas with people who were already into it in case they hadn't heard them already.
Anyway, everybody who came to the presentation said that it was very good and they enjoyed it. I'm very happy about that. This might help me want to make AB stuff a bigger part of my life again.
2005/07/06
Heidi's Dreamhouse
It's been a while since I posted anything. I wish I could stay more current, but there really hasn't been that much happening in my baby life.
Heidi's Dreamhouse is the web page of HeidiLynn, a Phoenix, Arizona AB. The Phoenix New Times recently published an article about Heidi.
The article talks about the CSI episode from February, "King Baby," but claims it was on CSI:Miami, which is wrong. But it does mention Santiago LLC, the company that made a lot of the baby furniture for the show. It's where HeidiLynn bought her high chair and other furniture.
It's been a while since I posted anything. I wish I could stay more current, but there really hasn't been that much happening in my baby life.
Heidi's Dreamhouse is the web page of HeidiLynn, a Phoenix, Arizona AB. The Phoenix New Times recently published an article about Heidi.
The article talks about the CSI episode from February, "King Baby," but claims it was on CSI:Miami, which is wrong. But it does mention Santiago LLC, the company that made a lot of the baby furniture for the show. It's where HeidiLynn bought her high chair and other furniture.
