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2003/09/23
Well I've been busy for a couple days again. The potluck went fine. There were 12 there other than Lynnette and myself, and her family members all stayed away. But it was pretty fun. The auction went well. Except I'm stuck with a stuffed bunny rabbit that was won by somebody who had already left. The bunny will be going to munches with me until her owner shows up to take her home. I was dressed in my diapers, plastic panties, tights, anklets, Mary Jane shoes, play dress, wig and bonnet. Got a couple pictures taken of me too. But I forgot my earring and bracelet, and my dolly Amelia.
I got three mosquito bites, two of them on my face! And these mosquitos' bites leave big red blotches on my skin for a few days! This is embarrassing, having this big red spot between my eyebrows.
I got my page changed back to regular Munch mode today. And I removed a reference to BDSM that I had on the HoosierHighChair page, by Lynnette's request. I guess some ABs are afraid of people who do SM, and since that page links to Lynnette's own stuff, she's afraid it will hurt her business. Well, since that page is in space donated by Lynnette, she gets to say what goes on it and what doesn't. But it makes me wonder whether the Hoosier High Chair stuff shouldn't be on my web space, now that I have a lot of it.
I try so hard to unite people, bring people together, when we're all in the same boat. It doesn't matter whether you like whips and chains or diapers and bibs -- the majority of people think you are weird, and people fear what's different and hate what they fear. Whether you know it or not there is enormous opposition mounted up against you, and you don't have the kind of infrastructure that the homosexual community has after decades of working against this very same kind of fear. And I want to help. And the suggestion that this idea of mine that we should pull together is wrong, just because there are a few scared people out there, is ... insulting. If you're scared, go ahead and be scared. But if you want to be useful, let's present a front of unity and show them that we have the right to exist.
After the potluck I drove back to town and got in around 10:30 to see what few of the folks were still up. I saw MsLissa, darius, RufRider and silverleaf again, and I got to meet oraedent1 and SirInnocence. I got dressed back up in my AB clothes, except for the tights; that was fun. Then I drove home like that. It was dark. Nobody could see me.
There's still the presentation on Thursday. Owie. And TJ's birthday.
I got three mosquito bites, two of them on my face! And these mosquitos' bites leave big red blotches on my skin for a few days! This is embarrassing, having this big red spot between my eyebrows.
I got my page changed back to regular Munch mode today. And I removed a reference to BDSM that I had on the HoosierHighChair page, by Lynnette's request. I guess some ABs are afraid of people who do SM, and since that page links to Lynnette's own stuff, she's afraid it will hurt her business. Well, since that page is in space donated by Lynnette, she gets to say what goes on it and what doesn't. But it makes me wonder whether the Hoosier High Chair stuff shouldn't be on my web space, now that I have a lot of it.
I try so hard to unite people, bring people together, when we're all in the same boat. It doesn't matter whether you like whips and chains or diapers and bibs -- the majority of people think you are weird, and people fear what's different and hate what they fear. Whether you know it or not there is enormous opposition mounted up against you, and you don't have the kind of infrastructure that the homosexual community has after decades of working against this very same kind of fear. And I want to help. And the suggestion that this idea of mine that we should pull together is wrong, just because there are a few scared people out there, is ... insulting. If you're scared, go ahead and be scared. But if you want to be useful, let's present a front of unity and show them that we have the right to exist.
After the potluck I drove back to town and got in around 10:30 to see what few of the folks were still up. I saw MsLissa, darius, RufRider and silverleaf again, and I got to meet oraedent1 and SirInnocence. I got dressed back up in my AB clothes, except for the tights; that was fun. Then I drove home like that. It was dark. Nobody could see me.
There's still the presentation on Thursday. Owie. And TJ's birthday.
2003/09/20
Well, the car is currently in the shop getting a new radiator. I got in there when they opened at 7 am. They said they'd be done around 11, which is when I need to leave for the potluck, I figure. Radiators are expensive! Though not as expensive as a transmission, I guess.
I'm getting my data together about who said they were coming to the potluck. I know of 14 people who are going to be there other than myself, Lynnette and anybody in her family who's going to be around. I'm putting their data in my Palm, and once I'm at the potluck and all dressed, I'm putting my Palm in the Hello Kitty purse that Kimmie gave me so I can keep it with me. I'm all ready to go, waiting for the garage to call and say they're done with my car.
I wound up buying the cups and utensils, as well as some cookies for dessert. I forgot to buy bug spray. I'll have to get some on the way out of town. It's not going to be as hot, so I'll be able to wear tights, and that might help some, but I'm sure there will still be plenty of bugs. I read in the newspaper that we now have Asian tiger mosquitos in Indiana; I've seen these and thought they looked different but didn't know what they were. Seems they're not particularly known for carrying any diseases, though of course they can.
Dave from California, I'm going to be using the baby bottle nipple adapters you gave me, and I thank you again. I wish I knew your email address. Email me if you read this please! A 2-liter bottle of Diet Pepsi Vanilla and one of those adapters, topped with my favorite bottle nipple, should make a great caffeine delivery system for the trip to Muncie and back. And yes, I'm wearing my diapers. And I'm putting the seat pad down in the car in case I leak. I shouldn't, though, with an AbriForm X-Plus, a Kins trainer and Comco plastic panties.
Anyway, I'm going to have to leave the potluck around 6 so I can get back and meet MsLissa, silverleaf, malabar, darius and whoever else winds up being there. They're from a great IRC channel that really helps people. Sometimes some of them get together now and then, but not often here in my town.
Well I just know I have other things I have to get done before I go. Take care everybody!
I'm getting my data together about who said they were coming to the potluck. I know of 14 people who are going to be there other than myself, Lynnette and anybody in her family who's going to be around. I'm putting their data in my Palm, and once I'm at the potluck and all dressed, I'm putting my Palm in the Hello Kitty purse that Kimmie gave me so I can keep it with me. I'm all ready to go, waiting for the garage to call and say they're done with my car.
I wound up buying the cups and utensils, as well as some cookies for dessert. I forgot to buy bug spray. I'll have to get some on the way out of town. It's not going to be as hot, so I'll be able to wear tights, and that might help some, but I'm sure there will still be plenty of bugs. I read in the newspaper that we now have Asian tiger mosquitos in Indiana; I've seen these and thought they looked different but didn't know what they were. Seems they're not particularly known for carrying any diseases, though of course they can.
Dave from California, I'm going to be using the baby bottle nipple adapters you gave me, and I thank you again. I wish I knew your email address. Email me if you read this please! A 2-liter bottle of Diet Pepsi Vanilla and one of those adapters, topped with my favorite bottle nipple, should make a great caffeine delivery system for the trip to Muncie and back. And yes, I'm wearing my diapers. And I'm putting the seat pad down in the car in case I leak. I shouldn't, though, with an AbriForm X-Plus, a Kins trainer and Comco plastic panties.
Anyway, I'm going to have to leave the potluck around 6 so I can get back and meet MsLissa, silverleaf, malabar, darius and whoever else winds up being there. They're from a great IRC channel that really helps people. Sometimes some of them get together now and then, but not often here in my town.
Well I just know I have other things I have to get done before I go. Take care everybody!
2003/09/19
Hi! We got a lot of people at the munch last night. There were at least 14. It was largely due to the fact that MsLissa came and brought a bunch of friends who happened to be visiting from out of town this week. There was one new person as well who was unrelated to that.
Now we have to worry about the presentation next week. I made up an outline and sent it off, trying to get the ball rolling. This ball is really hard to get rolling now that TJ isn't the primary impetus behind the group! Some of that could be because she was the primary impetus behind the group and people got used to that. Well I'm not going to do the same thing, because I'm not TJ.
Getting ready for the potluck Saturday ... the car's radiator is still leaking, despite all the stop-leak I've put in it. I'm going to have to get it fixed. As if I have time for that. Anyway, people have spoken up for most things except for utensils, cups, plates, and napkins -- and side dishes. We've got people bringing two kinds of salads and nobody bringing any other kind of side dish. What about people who hate salads (watch Jennie as she points at herself)? I guess I'll have to bring my own. And one person just wanted me to assign him to bring something, so I did. I hope he brings plates and napkins, because if he doesn't we won't have any.
I've been obsessing about this number puzzle. Write down a four-digit number. (It helps if all four digits aren't the same.) Now scramble the digits so you have another four-digit number. Now subtract the two four-digit numbers (the smaller one from the larger one) so you have a third number, the difference. Pick one of the digits of the difference you just got, and circle it. Then tell me the other numbers, the ones that you didn't circle. I can tell you the number you circled. Cool, huh? Did you know that the final digit sum of any integer gives you the remainder you would get if you divided that number by 9? Why is that? I want to know!
And I still have to somehow prepare for D&D on Sunday. And my wife wants the house vacuumed and the lawn mowed. And after the potluck there's another party that I want to go to -- with MsLissa's friends from out of town who don't gather here very often, though I see them online a lot. There just aren't enough hours in the day. But soon the potluck will be over, and soon the SM101 presentation will be over, and soon TJ's birthday will be over (I ordered her some presents).
Now we have to worry about the presentation next week. I made up an outline and sent it off, trying to get the ball rolling. This ball is really hard to get rolling now that TJ isn't the primary impetus behind the group! Some of that could be because she was the primary impetus behind the group and people got used to that. Well I'm not going to do the same thing, because I'm not TJ.
Getting ready for the potluck Saturday ... the car's radiator is still leaking, despite all the stop-leak I've put in it. I'm going to have to get it fixed. As if I have time for that. Anyway, people have spoken up for most things except for utensils, cups, plates, and napkins -- and side dishes. We've got people bringing two kinds of salads and nobody bringing any other kind of side dish. What about people who hate salads (watch Jennie as she points at herself)? I guess I'll have to bring my own. And one person just wanted me to assign him to bring something, so I did. I hope he brings plates and napkins, because if he doesn't we won't have any.
I've been obsessing about this number puzzle. Write down a four-digit number. (It helps if all four digits aren't the same.) Now scramble the digits so you have another four-digit number. Now subtract the two four-digit numbers (the smaller one from the larger one) so you have a third number, the difference. Pick one of the digits of the difference you just got, and circle it. Then tell me the other numbers, the ones that you didn't circle. I can tell you the number you circled. Cool, huh? Did you know that the final digit sum of any integer gives you the remainder you would get if you divided that number by 9? Why is that? I want to know!
And I still have to somehow prepare for D&D on Sunday. And my wife wants the house vacuumed and the lawn mowed. And after the potluck there's another party that I want to go to -- with MsLissa's friends from out of town who don't gather here very often, though I see them online a lot. There just aren't enough hours in the day. But soon the potluck will be over, and soon the SM101 presentation will be over, and soon TJ's birthday will be over (I ordered her some presents).
2003/09/18
Last night I actually didn't have very much to do, and my wife was out. I chatted online, wrote a script and cleaned off my desk! It's been months. Now if I could only write a script that cleaned off my desk.
There's a Munch tonight, and the same group is supposedly having an SM101 presentation next week, and there's the AB/DL potluck Saturday, and my wife's birthday is next week. I will be very happy when September is over. Meanwhile, I have things to do.
I want to remind all you aspiring swashbucklers out there that tomorrow, Sept. 19, is Talk Like A Pirate Day. Avast, me hearties!
There's a Munch tonight, and the same group is supposedly having an SM101 presentation next week, and there's the AB/DL potluck Saturday, and my wife's birthday is next week. I will be very happy when September is over. Meanwhile, I have things to do.
I want to remind all you aspiring swashbucklers out there that tomorrow, Sept. 19, is Talk Like A Pirate Day. Avast, me hearties!
2003/09/15
Wow, that was one busy weekend! Playing D&D on Friday, then all day Saturday I was four hours' drive north to play with an ensemble at an event, and then Sunday I had to get things ready for the first D&D session I've run for a while, and then run it. But everything turned out OK! The D&D game, I'm told, was fun, and everybody seemed to enjoy the music! I sure enjoyed it. It was just ... one thing after another with no breaks.
Saturday night and into Sunday morning I had a long conversation with a friend on a drive home, about sexuality, and gender, and the expectations of society. No, I won't be telling you what he told me ... those secrets are his, not mine. But I can tell you what I told him ... not very much. He knows I'm kinky and have fetishes, but not exactly what they are. I was considering telling him some of it, but then ... well I have to reveal one thing. He's very openminded about a lot of things, but he's uncomfortable about crossdressers -- it's an emotional reaction that he knows is irrational, but there it is. So, since I'm kind of a crossdresser, sort of (though I dress as a toddler girl, not a grown woman), I didn't want to go that way. I'm reminded of people who don't tell their spouses that they're adult babies because they've had indications that they wouldn't approve. Will I get around to telling him the details someday? Probably. For now, he knows about BDSM and fetishes and understands, and that's really good.
After the D&D game on Sunday night, we went out to eat with a friend or two, and then one of them came back to our place. I had to do the usual Sunday night ritual of bill-paying, but it was OK, since TJ wanted to talk to him alone in the living room. I think she likes him. But I heard her mention me a couple times, and once she took him into the room that she keeps all her BDSM fiction and nonfiction books in, to show him her collection. The problem is that it's also the room I keep all my AB/DL stuff in, although it's in the closet. I just wish she wouldn't show people that room without letting me know first, so I can make sure the closet door is closed!
I didn't have a chance to do anything ABish all weekend, although I was wearing the usual training panties constantly -- it's not as if I use them like diapers, though. Still, there a nice "reminder" of sorts, helping me maintain a connection to that part of myself when real life won't let me maintain any other sort of connection.
To work today I wore an actual diaper (AbriForm X-Plus) under my training panties and plastic panties over them. Since the California HBO thing I've only been in diapers once, and that was at night. I've been feeling as if I've somehow become more responsible in the AB/DL world, and as if responsible people aren't allowed to have fun. That second part's not fair, and I'm not going to accept it. So there.
Saturday night and into Sunday morning I had a long conversation with a friend on a drive home, about sexuality, and gender, and the expectations of society. No, I won't be telling you what he told me ... those secrets are his, not mine. But I can tell you what I told him ... not very much. He knows I'm kinky and have fetishes, but not exactly what they are. I was considering telling him some of it, but then ... well I have to reveal one thing. He's very openminded about a lot of things, but he's uncomfortable about crossdressers -- it's an emotional reaction that he knows is irrational, but there it is. So, since I'm kind of a crossdresser, sort of (though I dress as a toddler girl, not a grown woman), I didn't want to go that way. I'm reminded of people who don't tell their spouses that they're adult babies because they've had indications that they wouldn't approve. Will I get around to telling him the details someday? Probably. For now, he knows about BDSM and fetishes and understands, and that's really good.
After the D&D game on Sunday night, we went out to eat with a friend or two, and then one of them came back to our place. I had to do the usual Sunday night ritual of bill-paying, but it was OK, since TJ wanted to talk to him alone in the living room. I think she likes him. But I heard her mention me a couple times, and once she took him into the room that she keeps all her BDSM fiction and nonfiction books in, to show him her collection. The problem is that it's also the room I keep all my AB/DL stuff in, although it's in the closet. I just wish she wouldn't show people that room without letting me know first, so I can make sure the closet door is closed!
I didn't have a chance to do anything ABish all weekend, although I was wearing the usual training panties constantly -- it's not as if I use them like diapers, though. Still, there a nice "reminder" of sorts, helping me maintain a connection to that part of myself when real life won't let me maintain any other sort of connection.
To work today I wore an actual diaper (AbriForm X-Plus) under my training panties and plastic panties over them. Since the California HBO thing I've only been in diapers once, and that was at night. I've been feeling as if I've somehow become more responsible in the AB/DL world, and as if responsible people aren't allowed to have fun. That second part's not fair, and I'm not going to accept it. So there.
2003/09/11
What did I do today that was AB/DL related? Not one thing! Some days have to be like that.
I went to the place where I usually play roleplaying games Wednesday night. But tonight we watched the premiere of Enterprise and had birthday cake for me and for another guy with the same birthday who also games with us. How about that!
And on the way home I discovered that it can be bad not to have any coolant in your car. Luckily I wasn't far from Wal-Mart, so I pulled in there before the engine got too hot and added equal amounts of antifreeze and water. I promise to keep a closer eye on the coolant level in the future.
But I got home late enough that I don't have time to do much but post this and get to bed.
It's September 11. A moment of silence.
I went to the place where I usually play roleplaying games Wednesday night. But tonight we watched the premiere of Enterprise and had birthday cake for me and for another guy with the same birthday who also games with us. How about that!
And on the way home I discovered that it can be bad not to have any coolant in your car. Luckily I wasn't far from Wal-Mart, so I pulled in there before the engine got too hot and added equal amounts of antifreeze and water. I promise to keep a closer eye on the coolant level in the future.
But I got home late enough that I don't have time to do much but post this and get to bed.
It's September 11. A moment of silence.
2003/09/10
Well, I went through the links on my dynamic links page and weeded out the dead ones, and updated the ones that had moved. I will miss PrincessTigger's Nursery and Linda's Playground. 8:-( Linda wrote the "Miss Lena's Daycare Center" stories, a whole series of them.
We went out for dinner for my birthday to Chi-Chi's, and I had enchiladas, and TJ and Fox told the waiter it was my birthday. I admitted it and said I'd even wear a funny hat if they wanted. So before I was even done with my dinner the waiters came over, gave me some fried ice cream, put a sombrero on my head, and announced that it was my 21st birthday (I even told them I was 35, but they decided to say differently), then sang the birthday song and said I could keep the sombrero!
I was on the phone a lot when we got home. I talked to my brother and my parents, who wanted to say happy birthday. My brother just started a new job.
We went out for dinner for my birthday to Chi-Chi's, and I had enchiladas, and TJ and Fox told the waiter it was my birthday. I admitted it and said I'd even wear a funny hat if they wanted. So before I was even done with my dinner the waiters came over, gave me some fried ice cream, put a sombrero on my head, and announced that it was my 21st birthday (I even told them I was 35, but they decided to say differently), then sang the birthday song and said I could keep the sombrero!
I was on the phone a lot when we got home. I talked to my brother and my parents, who wanted to say happy birthday. My brother just started a new job.
2003/09/09
We had a good singing practice tonight, the best one in a long time. I still haven't done a second draft of that arrangement I want to do. And there are other arrangements I want to do, too. But I don't know if I have time.
I just got done converting my dynamic links page to MySQL, instead of being a text file. I modified the link-checking script too, so now I can just run the script to check all the links from anywhere, without having to download the links file. It's pretty slick, and the links page seems faster, too. Now if I can just go through and weed out some of the bad links, or find out where they've moved to.
Well, it looks as if we'll finish one of our roleplaying games this Thursday night, ending that storyline. This is good. None of us really has time for that game, unfortunately. I wish the guy running the game could play D&D with us on Sundays; he'd probably like that. But he has to work.
TJ (my wife) and Fox are going to have dinner with me at Chi-Chi's tomorrow night, which is my real birthday. It's in the middle of the week this year, so that's why we had the party on another night -- too hard to get people to come on a weeknight. Chi-Chi's is OK; I like their food. We're going there because it's the only time we go to even a pseudo-Mexican restaurant, because TJ doesn't like Mexican food. But it's my birthday, and we can go anywhere I say. I think TJ will want to go to the Olive Garden on her birthday. She likes Italian food as long as there aren't onions in it.
I just got done converting my dynamic links page to MySQL, instead of being a text file. I modified the link-checking script too, so now I can just run the script to check all the links from anywhere, without having to download the links file. It's pretty slick, and the links page seems faster, too. Now if I can just go through and weed out some of the bad links, or find out where they've moved to.
Well, it looks as if we'll finish one of our roleplaying games this Thursday night, ending that storyline. This is good. None of us really has time for that game, unfortunately. I wish the guy running the game could play D&D with us on Sundays; he'd probably like that. But he has to work.
TJ (my wife) and Fox are going to have dinner with me at Chi-Chi's tomorrow night, which is my real birthday. It's in the middle of the week this year, so that's why we had the party on another night -- too hard to get people to come on a weeknight. Chi-Chi's is OK; I like their food. We're going there because it's the only time we go to even a pseudo-Mexican restaurant, because TJ doesn't like Mexican food. But it's my birthday, and we can go anywhere I say. I think TJ will want to go to the Olive Garden on her birthday. She likes Italian food as long as there aren't onions in it.
2003/09/08
Well, Sunday was busy. First I was helping people make D&D characters for the game that starts next Sunday for which I must write material this week. Then we went out for pizza, then I had to do bills, yuck! Then I finished the picture I'd been working on.
2003/09/07
The birthday party is over -- I had fun! I got some nice presents from friends and people seemed to like the music. My wife got me a Homestar Runner T-shirt, for example. And some friends gave me a brainteaser gift that wouldn't make sense to anybody not living in this area, so there's no real point in repeating it. I have gift certificates to the local gaming store and the local comic store. Woohoo! Oh, and I blew out all 35 candles in one breath. Woohoo too!
2003/09/06
Today isn't my birthday, but it's my birthday party in just a couple hours! Right now I'm ripping songs from CDs to make a compilation CD to play in the background during the party. There will be a very wide range of music.
TammyJo and Fox have set things up downstairs. I'm a li'l bit excited. It's not going to be an "adult baby" birthday party or anything. Lots of friends are coming over. A lot of them know I'm into that, but it doesn't really enter into my everyday life.
And it doesn't. Part of me wishes it did, and part of me is glad it doesn't. I'm trying to make myself comfortable with putting just as much "Jennie" into my everyday life as I can without going into the uncomfortable zone. But that's not much. Basically it's things from wearing "training panties" under my clothes to carrying some baby supplies in my backpack to just being an admitted Sailor Moon and Cardcaptor Sakura fan. Not much that anybody can see.
Fox made me a "private" birthday card, though -- he's such a great person. It shows Jennie, as in the character from The Wotch who was inspired by me, running and yelling, "Cake! Ice cream! Presents!" It's so sweet, both the appearance of Jennie in the comic and Fox's reuse of the image ... it's good to know that there are people who know and accept. Whatever else people may give me for my birthday, that may be the best gift of them all.
TammyJo and Fox have set things up downstairs. I'm a li'l bit excited. It's not going to be an "adult baby" birthday party or anything. Lots of friends are coming over. A lot of them know I'm into that, but it doesn't really enter into my everyday life.
And it doesn't. Part of me wishes it did, and part of me is glad it doesn't. I'm trying to make myself comfortable with putting just as much "Jennie" into my everyday life as I can without going into the uncomfortable zone. But that's not much. Basically it's things from wearing "training panties" under my clothes to carrying some baby supplies in my backpack to just being an admitted Sailor Moon and Cardcaptor Sakura fan. Not much that anybody can see.
Fox made me a "private" birthday card, though -- he's such a great person. It shows Jennie, as in the character from The Wotch who was inspired by me, running and yelling, "Cake! Ice cream! Presents!" It's so sweet, both the appearance of Jennie in the comic and Fox's reuse of the image ... it's good to know that there are people who know and accept. Whatever else people may give me for my birthday, that may be the best gift of them all.
2003/09/05
Aiee, sending out beaucoup email announcements and updating web calendars ... I feel as if I only have a certain amount of social energy, and this drains it ...
Well, this secret project is developing a little bit. I've done another step. We'll see how far I get; maybe I'll actually get something worth showing people.
I've been posting on Kimmie's Yahoo group (she said it's OK to link to it), and she's been posting on mine. This is fun. I hope it continues. I have to answer Glen's email ... and post another reminder about the potluck ... and a lot of other stuff.
I've been posting on Kimmie's Yahoo group (she said it's OK to link to it), and she's been posting on mine. This is fun. I hope it continues. I have to answer Glen's email ... and post another reminder about the potluck ... and a lot of other stuff.
2003/09/04
Boy, everybody wants to talk about politics in chat today! I'm tired of that now. As if the world's problems are going to get solved in a chatroom. With thousands and thousands of people talking in chatrooms about politics, you'd think the solutions would be found if they exist.
Made a bit of progress on ... a new feature for this website that I'm not going to tell you about until it's ready! Hmm, I wonder what it could be? Maybe you'll just have to wait and see!
Made a bit of progress on ... a new feature for this website that I'm not going to tell you about until it's ready! Hmm, I wonder what it could be? Maybe you'll just have to wait and see!
2003/09/03
I just moved all my webcomics links into my bookmarks and off my old web page, another step in phasing out my old webpage site. Once I get rid of everything I use it for, I'll be able to cut that ISP bill in half (my wife still has her web page there). I still have to figure out what to do with my fan page for The Maxx, though.
I just got an email from a guy who says he's working on a new John Waters movie, (which according to the Internet Movie Database would be the first Waters film since 2000. He wants to know about adult baby clothes. I sent him a bunch of links from my links page, which he could really have looked up himself (what, you think I have "secret links" that I don't show anybody?), but I figured I could throw in my own editorials this way. Yes, Lynnette, I told him about your site. 8:-) I have no idea whether there are going to be any adult baby characters in this movie or not; he just said they needed clothes. I hope they pay for some rather than just copycatting clothes from people's catalogs.
OK, so did I do any of the things I needed to do last night? I had time; the Tuesday-night roleplaying game that we've been playing didn't meet. But no, I played Diablo II and Jet Force Gemini until it was time to take out the trash and go to bed. I'm just bad.
I did, however, wear diapers to bed for the first time since I came back from the weekend in California (on August 24). I remember wetting them sometime during the night, but I don't know exactly when. This is good, since my goal is to be able to wet without waking when I'm in diapers but not wet at all when I don't go to bed in diapers. For those who want to know how to do this, there are no drugs or hypnosis involved; I just make sure to drink water before bed so I'll be sure to wake up needing to pee, and instead of getting up to use the bathroom I just wet my diapers, trying not to wake up any more than necessary. As time has gone by, I've needed to be less and less fully awake to do this. This is similar to Mikey A. of BBW's "Natural Diaper Training Method"; Celastic has a copy of it on his site. It's taken years to get to this point, most likely because I'm not very consistent with it, but I'm to the point where I can occasionally wake up wet with only a vague memory of wetting my diaper and no idea of exactly when it happened. Once recently I did wake up wet without any recollection of having wet. On the other hand, once I woke up with memories of having wet, but I was dry; it had been a dream. But I'll continue to work on this, when I feel like it. So far I have never wet in my sleep while not in diapers. At least, not since I had a real bedwetting problem when I was a child.
I did, however, wear diapers to bed for the first time since I came back from the weekend in California (on August 24). I remember wetting them sometime during the night, but I don't know exactly when. This is good, since my goal is to be able to wet without waking when I'm in diapers but not wet at all when I don't go to bed in diapers. For those who want to know how to do this, there are no drugs or hypnosis involved; I just make sure to drink water before bed so I'll be sure to wake up needing to pee, and instead of getting up to use the bathroom I just wet my diapers, trying not to wake up any more than necessary. As time has gone by, I've needed to be less and less fully awake to do this. This is similar to Mikey A. of BBW's "Natural Diaper Training Method"; Celastic has a copy of it on his site. It's taken years to get to this point, most likely because I'm not very consistent with it, but I'm to the point where I can occasionally wake up wet with only a vague memory of wetting my diaper and no idea of exactly when it happened. Once recently I did wake up wet without any recollection of having wet. On the other hand, once I woke up with memories of having wet, but I was dry; it had been a dream. But I'll continue to work on this, when I feel like it. So far I have never wet in my sleep while not in diapers. At least, not since I had a real bedwetting problem when I was a child.
2003/09/02
Found the change dispenser. Easy chair.
Fixed a couple of clocks. This was Fox's night to fix dinner. Mine is Thursday. I still deal with the dishes, though; that's my job every night. Not as if it's that important.
Fixed a couple of clocks. This was Fox's night to fix dinner. Mine is Thursday. I still deal with the dishes, though; that's my job every night. Not as if it's that important.
Arrgh! Sometime last week I lost my change dispenser, and I have no idea where! I don't think I set it down anywhere, as it usually goes right back into my pocket. It could have fallen out of my pocket, though, into the easy chair or the car floor or somewhere else I was sitting. It's not on the car floor, though; I looked under the seats.
Oh yes, one other thing I have to do ... my Dungeons and Dragons game is gearing up for another chapter, after a summer of Vampire: the Masquerade that my wife ran. But now I have to prepare monsters and NPCs and events for the stories I have in mind. Much for me to do!
Well, the Headspace calendar is updated. Boy, we've got some stuff to get together. Putting an "SM101" (intro-to-BDSM type thing) together is going to be tougher without my wife being the driving force. But she quit doing things for Headspace at the end of July, because her teaching load is getting heavier and because she was tired of it. Also ... Bloomington is really quite provincial as far as the BDSM scene goes. She's seen what it can be like, how supportive and active people can be, even in Indianapolis, and there really isn't much of it here. Those of you who are here in town and are supportive and active, if you're reading -- you're great! ... And we have to decide what to do for October's workshop.
I'm starting a blog. This is a test.
Where this falls in my life: It's a week until my 35th birthday, and I just got done with the first weekend since my trip to California to be filmed for HBO. Maybe that will help establish where events stand.
Things I have to do: Finish a vocal arrangement for the singing group, finish a fanart coloring job I was doing for a web comic drawn by friends, update the web page for the local BDSM group, organize a potluck dinner that I'm involved with, and plan for my wife's birthday later this month. Maybe that will help establish where I'm going in the short term.
After that, it all depends on what happens.
Where this falls in my life: It's a week until my 35th birthday, and I just got done with the first weekend since my trip to California to be filmed for HBO. Maybe that will help establish where events stand.
Things I have to do: Finish a vocal arrangement for the singing group, finish a fanart coloring job I was doing for a web comic drawn by friends, update the web page for the local BDSM group, organize a potluck dinner that I'm involved with, and plan for my wife's birthday later this month. Maybe that will help establish where I'm going in the short term.
After that, it all depends on what happens.
